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by x325xRunawayTrainx103x Oct 13, 2005 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
Play the music loud, close the bedroom door It's part of the routine that I've done before The bottle of whiskey or beer sits on the stereo speaker Every sip makes me feel stronger, but weaker I get the pills that i have hidden in my middle drawer I make sure that i locked the door I crush them up into "magic dust" like we say I form a line...roll a bill...and the pain goes away The sniffling continues as i get another drink The whiskey is mixing, i can't seem to think My lighter and smokes are ready to go I need them to relieve stress, what does anybody else really know? I sit on my bed right next to my light Razor in the left hand, a shaky fist in the right Thrills running through me now I need to calm down, let me show you how One cut leads to another Several leads to many as blood begins to cover White begins to color my face I drop the rag and razor, I'm too weak to have that embrace My head is on the pillow, my hands are in a fold My pulse rate has stopped, my body is so cold..............The paper next day has the stunning fact That so many will be affected by this impact Once again, another teen age death who knew what she said with her final last breath People tried to believe it could not be Who they were talking about in the obituary I hope one day by friends will see That I'm sorry it was labeled IN MEMORY OF...me*No it's not a suicide note*