Am I not alone?

Will someone please hold my hand
And tell me everything is alright
I am scared of being a lone
In the forever changing night

I know you are watching
Me crumble inside my head
And now I have fallen down
Would you presume me dead?

Life is more complicated now
I hate walking this path by myself
But I know I chose this fate
When I told you "no" on the phone

The thing is I am just scared
Of loving and being loved in return
I have given myself limits
I just wish you would've learned

My feelings are crashing with my skull
On how I should be doing other things
Than just thinking of you
And what happiness it brings

So please tell me I am not alone
In this pool of mixed meanings
For when I somehow drown
Someone will save me