He, I'm not a big beliecer either, and I have written some stuff like that in the past aswell (I took them of some time later). life can be hard and very unforgiving at times, it can leave us more hurt then anything else. I solve this for myself by simply not relying on God to make my day. I take my own decisions, and I choose my own paths in life. This way, I know that if I screw up, I can either blame myself, or the one who helped me screrw things up, who is ussualy another person.