If only I could tell you

*I wish I could tell you how I felt and let you know, but I cant, because that would cause problems, and thats somethin i rly dont need right now...I just want you there to be by my side and tell me that it doesnt matter what he says or does, that if he were truely my friend, he wouldnt care who I was with, as long as I was happy...But here's the thing...You can't stand him, and he can't stand you, so here I am stuck in the middle....I love you alot and I hope you know this too....And as for my so called "friend," I just wish that he could see that by him sayin he doesnt want to talk to me and doesn't care anymore, it rly does kinda hurt, I am stuck with either him hating me and not talkin to me...but thats ok cause I have you....But if I talk to him then I am afraid I would loose you...The thing is, I dont understand why I cant have you, and him as a friend...Do you not trust me? ...But then again it doesnt matter, we are no longer friends...I guess this is ok though, cause I have you..But please dont leave me right now, for if you do, I dont know that I'd make it...