Not Enough

~X~ Hey this is not to my girl but she has been a very special person in my life and has helped me grow even tough I hurt her ~X~

Dear Christine,

Hey I don't deserve a second chance at being anything with you. I'm so confused with mixed emotions. I know I hurt you and maybe I didn't love you enough though to see pass my anger and pain to let you in and I'm sorry about that I really am. I didn't love you enough to ask if it was over and instead I wound up cheating on you. I'm not looking for forgiveness I'm asking for understanding and maybe friendship. You make me sad when you talk of killing yourself I don't want you to leave at least not without saying good bye you promise right to tell me if you go. I can't turn the hands on the clock back and make you love me again because I have a new someone in my life and I know that hurts too. I just keep adding salt to your wounds I haven�t loved you enough to really be there for you at all you needed me to catch you and I let you fall. All I can Say is that I didn't Love you enough!