Reflections

Reflection on my life is dark and gray
Tears, Sweat, Blood, are all symmetrical
values to the never ending always
changing types of pain. you ask
when I look into a mirror what
do I see I see an angel in my
eyes but if I look deeper inside
I see a deep hollow cavern of a
demon I'm wearing a mask so real
I think thats me always saying I'm going
to live life to the fullest but I sit and cry
at night exposing my true self to me
and no one else only I can see me so
when I look in the Mirror and say mirror
mirror on the wall who's the the one to
blame it shows me then breaks at my
feet hoping I'll be weak and grab a shard
and press it to my wrist and let the blood
flow but instead my deeper self is scared
to die to scared to pick it up so I do and
try to silence my inner self but when i look
in the mirror thats the side I have to face
each and every day and some days I can
reason with him and become a better soul
and start picking up the glass but the a day
comes pass I can't step up to the plate and
it all shatters then breaks so my life is S*** no
matter how much Hell I may go through I got
to stand tall and I have to prove true yet I dunno
if I can do that when I reflect on my inner self
and great him not to beat him stand up tall like
he does I need to throw away my mask but the
persona is all my body has got my soul means
nothing to a world who only looks on the inside
as reflections stand behind me there hate and
fear and pain all the things that I have to deal
with don't know how much longer I can do that
will someone PLZ help and show me my true reflection