Confused

Lately I haven't been able to write
Because my feelings I don't understand
I am torn between wanting you to care
And wanting you as my man

I sometimes wish you were all mine
Then I tell myself I am out of my mind
Because that will never happen
Life would never be so kind

But then we argue like we did last week
And I find myself in a good spot
Getting you only when we want to
Only being mine when I am hot

You are different somehow
You are now colder with me
I guess since you know me so good
You think thats the way it should be

We've been messing around for months
To be exact about four
But each time we kiss
You always leave me wanting more

And sometimes I think I love you
Then I turn around and cry
Because I know that soon it will end
And we will say our goodbyes

And I swear I wont tell you I am hurting
I wont let those feelings out
A way to come over them
I will figure out

But then again I think real hard
And I feel I will be just fine
If we messed around or not
It would not hurt my heart or mind

See I am confused
And I think I know what it is
One minute I think with my heart
And I would die for one kiss

The next minute I think
And I start to use my brain
And having a relationship with you
Seems totally insane

So I guess I do love you
But my common sense knows best
It's an ongoing battle between the two
Always putting me to the test

So I am your lover
You also call me friend
I guess I will stick with both
Until they come to an end