Just a mistake

I'm trying my best
but nothings good enough for you
i try everyday, every night
to survive the pain you put me through

vile words spill from your mouth
as you scream and try to hit me
i cower in fear, and start to cry
if only i could just leave

if i could disappear
and leave all the pain behind
instead of sitting in my dark room
and watch myself always cry

i just want to make you proud
but i always screw things up
i make you so mad sometimes
that your beatings never seice to stop

mommy I'm very sorry
for being such a disgrace
and i knew from the beginning
that i was you biggest mistake

you've told me over and over
that you regret that day
i just wish i could do something right
i just wish i could make you love me