Swallowing my feelings

Swallowing my feelings
poison running through my veins.
This is the beginning
to my everlasting chains.
I want, I need, I wish
but I can only see
everything gone with a swish
as no one tries to find the key.
I know I need to speak out
but my voice has left me
my heart is full of doubt
pleading to be free.
But I am clouded by my fear
and hurt by loneliness
I feel love near
but I turn it into nothingness.
I let someone else take away
what perhaps could be mine, never will.
I will never be able to say,
what I feel, and it makes me ill.
Feeling the venom inside of me
that feeds my tormented feeling
but I guess they'll never see
that nothing inside me is healing.
So in my life I'll always be,
swallowing my feelings.