HoLdInG mY bRo iN mY aRmS

My brother and his girlfriend
Together for 3 years
After a romantic night out she brang it to an end.

My brother driving home
Suicide running through his head
I didn't think he was serious when he rang me and told me "I want to be dead."

But still I ran home
Even though it was my birthday,
To find the front door wide open
His stuff scrambled all over the floor
I ran downstairs and knocked on his door.

No voice was heard
No movement was made
I opened the door
To find nothing but blood all over the floor.

I shouted out to him
but I got nothing in response
The lighting was going dim
And I still couldn't find him.

I ran up to the bathroom
To find more blood across the sink
The tears starting to stream down my face
How could this be happening? Especially at my place...

I found a line of blood leading down to the garage
The door was shut...
He must be in here
But to open the door, do I dare?

I never thought twice and opened the door, to find nothing but blood
flooded on the floor.
I look up to see him hanging off
a rope
I cut him down, and thought if he dies, I'll never be able to cope.

He had slits across his wrists
and All the way up his arm
I didn't think he was like this...
Mutilating himself in self harm.

As I call the ambulance and scream down the phone
I look at him and tell him I love him one last time. He smiles back up and tells me he's sorry and that he loves me too.

The ambulance arrives as I scream for help.
I look down and notice his eyes are shut.
I know that my brother has just died as I hold him tight,
My birthday, June 29th was his last night.