Spend with you

Every minute, of every hour,of everyday, i think about killing myself, but then I'm so afraid, i dont want to hurt you, but I'm afraid your going to hurt me, why you ask?, because i love you so much to were i dont want to lose you, every minute i spend with you is heaven, but when i go back to reality its hell, i hate myself sometimes, but when I'm with you..i feel perfect, do you understand?, please dont let me go under again, save me...from the hell forsaken place, dont let me die, let me stay awake,you holding on to my hand, keeps the warmth going on through my body, dont leave me again, because i dont know how long ill be here, love me for who i am, and I'm sure i will love you for ever....every moment i spend with you...is every moment I'm happy..