Until eternity

Time has past...so fast that's it's already been one year
And i still miss you so much my dear

We went to the cemetery today
We placed flowers at where you lay

My gram started to tear as the wind blew against her face
She closed her eyes, i felt her embrace

It's so hard because it wasn't your choice
I'd give my life just to hear your soft voice

I remember everything like it was yesterday
And i could honestly say to you...yes I'm OK

I remember the fun times like the slipping of money and TV shows
the puzzles, the laughs and whatever else goes

I remember the things though that you taught me
I should do what i want and that's all i can be

When i was upset, you would cry with me
So i could understand that me being sad made you feel empty

When i was hurt, you were too
But now you're gone, and I'm kind of lost with out you

You lived a long and full life
A loving mother, a daughter and a wife

So now what do i do when i start to cry?
No body cares, only you would try

And when i sit here by myself and think
I close my eyes, too much can effect my thoughts with one blink

I can hear you and the things you said
It's like you are right there...in my head

I can feel your soft hands be placed in mine
I can feel your hug when we both start crying

But then i can picture the pain you had
The little things and the ones that made us sad

I remember seeing you fall right there on the floor
Frank came rushing through the door

That's the day you were diagnosed with a type of cancer
You were knocking on heaven's door but there was no answer

So instead, for a while, you were holding and fighting strong
Until a year ago when it all went wrong

I came home from school because i knew there some bad
I couldn't let go of the night's before dream i had

Turned out my nightmare was coming true
And on October 15th, that's when i lost you

On your funeral, you laid before us...cold
They said you died peacefully or so I'm told

But you can see it in your face
the pain you had you can't erase

And that kills me because you were so loving and caring
And still...this loneliness isn't bearing

You were so cocky in a good way
But confident every single day

You didn't take crap from anyone
You weren't giving up until the fight was done

And now I'm mad because the angels have you now
I need you back, but i don't know how

I'm so numb because I'm screwing up down here
My life NOW was your only fear

But i love you Stella and i miss you so much
I see you in my dreams but i can't feel your touch

And i know that one day we'll meet again
I'll stand before you in the end

I'll apologize for the things that i have done
And when i see you, to you, i will run

I can't wait to hug you once again
I can't wait to see my loving friend

So here it is, from your precious me
I still love you and always will until eternity