Sail away

How many times have i told myself to forget you?
how many times,
have i decided i was going to give it up,
to accept that you are out of reach?
a plethora of times,
yet i keep reaching,
and jumping,
snatching at thin air,
i can't reach you.

How may times,
have i wrote down meaningful words about you,
to pour our my heart,
to let loose my feelings,
and yet they don't mean anything to anyone else,
especially not you,
and thats all that matters,
that you hear me,
and you don't.

I keep telling myself,
Maybe if i opened my heart to you,
and really let you in,
shared my secret desires with you,
things would change,
but deep inside i know it won't,
I know i lost you long ago,
before the winds that blew me away,
before the waves that crashed down upon me,
before the storm that destroyed what we had,
leaving us with nothing,
leaving me with nothing.

How many times,
have the season changed,
leaving behind remnants of their existence?
How many times,
has the wind blown apart the peace,
and the rain poured down to clean up the mess?
Thats how many times I've tried to let go,
of these feelings inside,
to let go of this piece of my heart,
and watch it sail across in the wind.

and watch it sail away,
leaving me empty,
watch it sail away,
sail away.......