Memories

Everyday I wake, one more reason to die
One reason to give up hope, one reason to lie
the truth gets my nowheres, a smile is just fake
Loneliness is killing me, and its more than I can take
when I try to do good, and change the way things are
it leads me to the blade, the blood and the scar
memories of that day, I almost ended my life
memories of the pain, and the horrid crimson knife
all so clear to me, I wont regret what I did
Things happen for a reason, maybe thats why I lived
I wish that I didn't, but wishes won't come true
if they did when you needed em, I'd be dead with you
Theres noting left for me on earth, i gave it all away
My feelings, my tears, my heart, they we're all broken on that day.
I'm living like a zombie, walking with a blank stare
Look around every corner I pass, hoping that you're there
Its funny how the mind works, it confuses me so..
Every time I see a path, memories prevent me to go
I know I can't move forward, till I say goodbye
But I chose to run forever, I wont say it till I die.