He drove me home that night
And he walked me to the door
So gentle and polite
It was perfect and i went away
Sleeping the night
To awake to the next day
We dated for many weeks
Started to date more and more
And we both swore
To our love forever
At least, that is what it felt like
For me
Those days that went by
We were filled with happy and glee
He asked me to come to his house
But this was very normal
Since i did all the time
But he was very hormonal
He kissed me right there
Before we even got to the stairs
He pulled me up there
And touched me in places
That i did care
I was mad so much
With rage in my heart
Did he like me?
At least right from the start?
I excused myself
Although i stayed only 5 or so min
But i was still not sure
What just happened.
Was that all he wanted me for?
Sex?
This guy i have known forever
I thought he loved me
But i guess that was a never
I feel so hurt
I feel so ashamed
I can not believe I let this happen
And become part of his game
I thought i knew him
That boy that was 7
So young and kind
What happened?
What about when we played
And played all the time
He grew up
I still do not understand
But what will happen tomorrow
When he invites me back in?
What is my excuse?
What is my reason?
For leaving him that night
Is he mad?
Is he disappointed?
Or does he feel like
He did something wrong
And needs to be reappointed
As a worried and restless night
I awake with quiet a sight
As i got up to get breakfast
He was standing right there
Talking to me mom
And when i came down
He pretended i was not there
I tried not to look at him
I just kept walking
But once i got into the kitchen
He came in at once
....to be continued, again.....
OK, i do notcare if you do not like the type of poems i type. I am trying to get into abuse in this poem, since i have never yet. I like to make different things, let me just try this out. But yeah, stay tuned loll.
