Falling

Something must be wrong with me
Nothings ever right
The walls are closing in
Making breathing ever so tight

The sun is shining
Not a cloud in sight
Should I not be happy?
Why am I so sad?

The sleepless nights are coming near
The scars on my arms are ever so clear
I can't handle this pain deep inside
So please don't follow beside

I'm sitting here with a knife in hand
Contemplating to the very end
Some will ask
Why do you do that?
But don't because you don't understand

Why won't he love me?
The way he loves his son
Am I not his daughter?

Where do I go from here?
Please make things more clear
Help me stop falling
Down the tunnel of shame