No Longer Alone

You promised to not tell my secret
And that promise you did keep
When you found out my horrible secrets
That I have always kept so deep

You saw my crimson cuts
And looked up at me so sad
Then something came over you
And turned you very mad

You asked me how I could do this?
How could I be so dumb?
You yelled at me some more
And asked what I had become

I told you I wasnâ??t happy
That this life was far too hard
And that I felt so alone
And would be forever scarred

I pleaded with you not to tell
That it wouldnâ??t help at all
I was so afraid of you now
I always felt so small

Finally you saw my hurt
But you were still extremely upset
You told me no more cutting
And had some rules you set

You told me youâ??d give me a trial
So you gave me seven days
I had to learn not to cut
And give up my harmful ways

And if I came to school next week
And had any crimson cuts
You would call my house that night
With no ifs, ands, or buts

So I struggled to give up the knife
And Cassie helped me the whole way
I didnâ??t cut for a whole week!
I was so proud of myself that day

I showed you my clean arms
And for once I felt so tall
You said that you were happy
But still didnâ??t trust me at all

But then you said something amazing
That I should go to you and not the knife
That you would always be there for me
And help me get through life

I smiled up at you
My eyes so wet they shone
Then you hugged me and I knew
That I was no longer alone

*this is true. my best friend and ex boyfriend that i am still in love with found out i cut and he\'s been so great thru it all. he\'s rele helping me and telling me its going to get better. but sometimes i dont believe him. i want to go back to the knife so bad but i dont want to let him down and i dont want him to tell. he said something so cute to me the other day...i said \"jack i feel like i\'m ruining you life.\" and he goes \"i feel like i\'m saving yours.\" i wish we were still going out...but my best friend took him from me.