Burden

I do not know if this sounds bizarre
But I do not know who I am
I do not know what I am feeling
What is genuine, fake or pretend

I go about this existence
And may seem normal to you
But if you asked me who I was
I would not have a clue

I do not know my identity
Or who is close to my heart
Alls I know is that slowly
My composure is falling apart

One day I am so happy
And I love you all being around
But the next I am depressing and angry
And my love for you all cascades down

Everyone believes I wont succeed
But I will prove you all so very wrong
At first I may be lost and seem to fall
But without you I will still become strong

I just want some common ground
Somewhere that I can find me
Want to be independent
Then I wont be a burden, and you’ll see

That I can live this life without your criticism
I will be proficient and able
I will shine and be happy
And my insecurities will finally be stable

I am convinced it will be hard at first
But I need the answers I am looking for
I need to exonerate this baggage
And close this breaking door

I will be confused and scared
And I will cry a lot of tears
But I need to survive life on my own
To conquer all of my fears

I was independent before I met you
You should not have to worry about me
I am not your responsibility or burden
And this is what I want you to see.