I'm Mean't To Be Alone

I used to love this guy
who didn't treat me so well.
Used to hurt me so much
I still have no one to tell.

After that I loved another guy
that I thought was perfect for me.
But He ended up cheating
I was so dumb no to have seen.

So now I'm all alone
with no one to love.
No one to care for me
no one to hug.

After those relationships
it's much harder for me to care.
To love someone
enough to share.

To share my feelings with
when I need a friend.
All I do now
is just pretend.

That I'm happy all the time
when really I'm not.
I wish I could love
but my distrust wont stop.

Distrust of all guys
breaking my heart.
For my whole life
to be torn apart.

Cause that's what my last
boyfriends have done to me.
I just dont have the power
to end the feeling.

It's too hard for me
to be by someones side.
Knowing one day
they can leave me behind.

Am I just meant
to be alone all my life?
Or am I just destined
to live in strife.

With one heart ache after another
tearing me apart?
A guy hurting me
right from the start?

That's why I'm alone
cause I can't take pain.
Love is a waste
with nothing to gain.

I know it sux but plz comment and tell me how I can improve it. Thanx.