My Bleeding Tears

I never thought I'd do it,
I'd look down on people who do,
Then my life flipped,
turned around on me,
putting me through catastrophe's,
always feeling lost,
not knowing what to do.

It helps me so much,
In such a mysterious way.
I wish I didn't do it though,
that there was still hope for me.
No-one knows what I do, or what dries up my tears.
Except for me and that thing,
that holds my bleeding fears.

I sometimes cut my way through it,
the path of doom & light.
I try to find ways around it.
But it's always a losing fight.

There's no use for me, or my presence here. I'm just going to leave this place for people who are cared.