False Beliefs

False Beliefs

Suffering-Is what I do day to day
End It All-Is what ill do today
Put a gun to my head pull the trigger
No second thoughts, regrets just a gun and my finger

Happiness-Always squirms away from me
Sadness-Seems to always stay with me
There's no way for me to ever escape
The sadness that comes on as strong as rape

Always-walking around with a smile on my face
Always-to scared to let sadness embrace
I hide from the scars and wounds on my heart
I hide from the sadness always tearing me apart

Inside-my heart is laying shredded to pieces
Outside-looks as if happiness increases
The truth of the matter is I'm never happy
Yet always smiling never looking sappy

Wanting-Yet never satisfied at what I find
Unhappy-with the foundation of my mind
Still having a desire for my ex- love
Never getting her, or receiving that love

I-Had my one chance but I messed it all up
You-Said I did nothing wrong;then what the fu ck
You said take you to court you did it all
But why am I punished for your own flaw

I-still don't see your reason for splitting
But-obviously it was good for you are quitting
You gave up on things when they were great
So I guess I was wrong this was not fate...