*this poem is credited to a friend of mine, she wrote it ****
To be completely honest... I dont know what love is. I dont know if its permanent, or just a temporary/short term state of something which resembles euphoria. I don't know if everyone will experience it... I don't know if everyone is capable of experiencing it. I can't describe it either.
Unfortunately, whoever said "you'll know what it is when you feel it" was right - however frustrating that may be for the people who are looking for answers.
I know this mustn\'t sound convincing to whoever\'s reading this that I\'m in love. And I know I seem to have the incapability of finding words which do my feelings justice. I guess it\'s the feeling that if you didn\'t have that person, in whatever shape or form, you couldn\'t go on. It\'s finding that person you can\'t live without.
Its spending every single waking second of every single day wanting, and thinking about that person... and not getting frustrated that they've taken a permanent residency inside of your head.
Its dreaming about them, and waking to find yourself disappointed that its not in fact their chest youre resting your head on... but a pillow for one in your single bed.
Its seeing couples together, and envying the fact that theyre sharing the same air, let alone the fact that theyre holding hands, or that his arms are around her waist {and that her arms are resting on his shoulders and around his neck}.. or that theyre hugging; holding each other. Lips pressed against each others; keeping what theyre feeling as a secret from the world. It is all part of the secret. Its all part of the expression.
The expression which will fail to translate what theyre feeling inside, into words and actions. I dont think it is possible to show how much you love someone... material objects do love no justice. They just make a joke of what it really is. It is easy to fool someone with words or presents.. it is not, however, when you lack the twinkle in your eye when you see the person you love.
I cannot ever tell him how much I love him, because - like I said - words are not a valid form of expression for this subject. I dont know. I just, cant put it into words.
All I know is, it is real, and I love him.
Beyond words.
