The death of my mind

I sit and I cry,
Outside in the hall
It's a miracle that I
Can even think at all

My mind used to be great,
But now it's all battered
My heart was once whole,
But now it's been shattered

I asked you about it
I wanted the truth
I was stupid to trust you,
So naive in my youth

You said it was nothing,
Just a summer friend.
And how was I to know
That that wouldn't be the end?

She said that she loved you
But you already loved me
Though you didn't tell her
Did you want to be set free?

All you needed to do
Was to say you were mine
But instead you did not
And you wasted our time

You waited 66 days
To tell her about us
But if you'd wanted to be hers,
You could have got on a bus

You felt guilty about me
You wanted her instead
You didn't tell me the truth,
You just messed with my head

And how can I tell
What is truth and what is not?
My insides are empty,
You have left me to rot.

Is this what you want?
Of me you wish to be rid?
Do you lust after her?
The one you call Syd?