Love is such and amazing feeling. Losing love is what hurts. It makes you feel like you gave up the one thing that makes you solid. It is so painful when you are in love with someone who is everything you ever wanted, then you see the real side of them and realize it was all an act. You fall for someone who doesn't really exist. After you have been hurt like that, you are scared to ever get into another relationship because deep inside you reflect back to how much you were hurt and you feel like it will just happen again. Everyday you just sit and wonder, "Why did this have to happen to me? Why was I the one that had to get fooled into love?" Day after day, you sit and wonder if the pain and broken pieces will ever go away. You pray everyday that you will just feel joy and happiness, but it is just dark and you feel like shit again. You want to just forget about them and wake up the next day with no memories of them, because in your heart even the good memories aren't worth the pain you are going through. Let it go, you say let it go all the time, even though it was a long time ago, it still tears your heart up thinking about it. They are sweet one day, but other days, they are a person you despise. Every time you feel the sweet side of them you get pulled back into it because it weakens your heart. Feeling like someone really cares for you, even though you know it isn't real. At night you try to go to sleep, but all the good memories pop in your head and it just draws tears to your face because you wish it could be like it was. Again, you just wish it would disappear, and you wish your life would end soon so all the pain would just fade away and you would never feel hurt again. It seems like since now you don't have someone to hug and kiss on, everyone around you does and it hurts you to see them because you wish you could be feeling the care that they are feeling. Sometimes you feel like you are in a dark hole, but when you try to climb out you just eventually let go because you feel like you are too weak to get the rest of the way out. In your soul you feel trapped like it's a never ending process. You keep praying for God to just show you a way out, but you just don't see it, it is just a giant blur. You feel like even if you do see the way out, you can't make it because you don't have the strength. When you have lost just about all hope, you make one last prayer and it leads you into writing something like this.
