Your Fear of Love

You said what we needed was space,
All I wanted was to see your face,
Less of you could mean the death of me,
And I do need you desperately.

I’d be embarrassed if you knew,
that the mood of my day relies on you,
I just wish you would come back,
Happiness in life I seem to lack.
Without you I’m incomplete,
I’m like a Bigmac missing the meat.

Your hands clasped in mine,
Both of our smiles showing that we are beyond just fine,
A magical kiss under the stars,
Reality just seems so incredibly far.
My alarm beeps and I rub my eyes,
I should have known just as love gets good, it dies.

Your face haunts me in my dreams,
It’s no nightmare, more a fairytale of all things,
I awake and realize my dreams aren’t true.
Hell is the feeling of never having you….

Afraid of love, how can that be?
Don’t you feel that you need me?
Forget what you’ve heard about sadness and heartbreak,
Take a risk, at least for love’s sake.

Get over you, I wish I could,
Believe me you’re not the only one who thinks I should.
I feel loss for the first time,
Enduring pain makes it a sign,
We both know we had something right,
Something you knew you couldn’t fight,
Instead of facing what was real,
You ran scared like it was your last meal.

I’m lost in a tunnel and there’s no way out,
I should believe your excuses but instead I doubt,
I should listen to what you say,
Not hold on but instead move away.
I can’t bring myself to let it all go,
Im drowning in a boat of sad rhymes and I refuse to row.

I banter on about my sorrow,
It could all change if you called tomorrow.
But I know that wont happen, who am I kidding?
My heart is up for auction and you aren’t bidding.

My analogies are pathetic and I’m wallowing in self-pity,
I’m like a grungy hobo in the middle of New York city.
Hiding in corners feeling non existent,
However my love for you is still persistent.

One day I will embark and forget this pain,
But I will never ever forget your name,
It is engraved in my heart,
I should have known you would leave from the start.

Where do I go from here?
Do I wait forever tear after tear?
It’s difficult for me to decide,
Either way it won’t keep me satisfied.
I can choose to get over it or hold on,
My mind wanders to our memories foregone.
I can’t keep up this happy girl act,
Seems the only conclusion is for u to come back.