Traumatized daughter

I keep having dreams of him
beating her and the dog to their last limb
do they call it flashbacks or nightmares
or is it the mind who won't forget and doesnt care
why cant i forget the past and let go
I fear it will never leave me, I try not to show
I have the best life now, I wish i could move forward
the more I try, the more i fail, keeps comin toward

my stomach hurts again, thinking about htings
keeping it all in again, what will that solution bring
you dont talk to anyone, you wont have drama
thats it, point made no comma
do i need to talk, will this put me back there
the psych unit, nothing but a gown, just bare
I need my best friend, she is also stressed
ive kind of learned to go without her, igh I just need a rest
my pills are not working anymore
i get depressed to often, stuff I try to ignore
why is my brain choosing to think about things
i dont want to go back, i want to see what the future brings
to many things on my mind at one time
nobody to talk to , just crying, puking, trying to rhyme
im lost, i need help im trying to think and define
if i really control myself, is my body reall mine?