I dont want death..?

Would you think that I'm not worthy,
cuz i don't wanna take my life?
Would you think that I'm no brave,
because i just wont use a knife?

Well, I'll tell you that, its none of these things,
it's not because I'm scared.
I just don't see the point,
When no one would ever care.

Sometimes i want a quick way out,
just to numb the pain.
But then again, i want the blood to show,
So that they can feel some shame.

I don't want death,
But i hate this life.

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