Flow

~ i know this is long, but please take the time to read and commment. this poem took me many hours and it would reallly mean a lot to me if you told me what you think ~ thanks, Tiffani

This is about the pain in everything,
pain...
its something that grows,
in everyones heart...
we all feel it...
hurt,
sadness,
depression...
this is every happy situation unraveled,
every memory,
that seems to be happy...
is uncovered for the truth...

have you ever felt the way i do???
crying the hardest over little things...
like an assignment you for got was due...
the little things are what nail me...
they build and build inside...
until i let it flow...
sometimes i sit on the edge of my bed,
and talk to myself as comfort...
as soon as i begin to feel better,
my mom comes in hollering,
and i start to cry all over again...
i cry myself to sleep at night,
90% of the time...
no matter how happy i felt that day,
i come home,
and every happy feeling floats away...
its so hard to have no one...
to be left alone...
to realize how you have no friends,
and family is as emotional as stone...
its just so hard...
but then i let it all flow...
Ive made bad decisions,
and very smart ones too...
but i do not deserve everything i have to live with...
i let a tear well up in my eye...
then i blink and breath,
the tears flow down my cheek...
i calmly start to breath in deep...
then more tears come...
they come,
and come,
and come...
tears are the one thing in my life,
that never seem to go away...
i start to think about my horrible day...
and just let it flow...
until I'm crying so hard i cant breath,
nor can i see...
it feels better than keeping it in,
just let it flow...
sometimes i cry for minutes...
sometimes for hours,
days...
until i let it all flow out...
then i can finally face the world...
a brand new a day...
a clean slate...
every things better cause i let it flow...