Love?

Flying high
never touching
always wanting
waiting
hoping for something more
a glance,
a look
one simple question
answer -
yes

just a coffee
then a movie
fantasy?
not any more
connection
between us
energy flying
burning desires
holistic?
wait

pressure to perform
unsure of where i stand
wanting
refraining
right or wrong?
black or white?
darker shade of Grey?
too fast
can't keep up
devastated
over

you're sorry
truth?
lie?
trust rekindled
promises are playful
time is never enough
emotions running wild
you leave wanting more
and i say -
sorry

flame ignites
inside of me
something snaps
nows the time
we both know it
holistic?
with passion
innocence lost
smiles of achievement
sighs of exhaustion
moans of satisfaction
sunlight across your face
love?

away together
something changes
I love you
my words left unanswered
silence in the air
the door closes
we come home
I yell
I scream
I tell you how i feel
i thought you felt the same
i thought you felt it too
why aren't you saying anything?
am i but alone?
then you utter one word
i cannot stand to hear
over
devastated i shut the door
the sound i hear
the door closes
I go
and you don't follow
You couldn't cope
left shattered

i hear you've gone away
i can't rinse you
under my skin
six months pass
and I've still not moved on
I wonder where you are
who you're with
I meet someone
a friend
we talk
I begin to move on
thinking of you always
wanting you forever
my heart still lies with you
hope is all i have
reality seems bleak
then i see one thing
potential to kill -
a letter

you're back
I don't know what to say
I stand
I smile
friends?
it's not all you want
but i say yes
passion still there
times past
we still feel it
coffee?
yes

we talk
small talk
lies
you've slept around
I can tell
was i just another in line?
was it special?
why did you leave?
all my questions
left unsaid
I shouldn't see you
moving on?
stuck on you
can't shake it off
I know you want me too
what's your game?
sick of this
silence deafening
sexual tension
lies between us
I feel it
you feel it too
mistake

I can't stand it
I want you
but i won't come crawling back
talk to me
passion still there
too many feelings
gap year
I'm going away
escape
just what i need
emotional turmoil
phone call
who is it?
you

we talk
you open up
but only because I'm going
you want me back
I want you too
heart leaps
trust?
not sure
one chance?
maybe
not going to give up my life
wait for me?
come see you?
Christmas?
I'll write

love?

thanks for reading... sorry it was so long. anyway if you don't understand it just let me know, its a bit weird. i like the ending but please comment!