Well I have to disagree with you on the first statement :) I believe it would be better to feel nothing than pain - From experience. Nice poem though :D

Just a few suggestions for you that you can choose to listen to or not:

1 "Its better to feel pain" - 'Its' should have an apostrophe between the t & s. "It's" short for It is. :P

2 "I want to know that im alive" - Again 'im' should have an apostrophe between the i & m. "I'm" short for I am.

3 "and not walking numb" - This doesn't quite make sense to me, it would make a little more if it said "walk" instead of "walking"

:D They are just a few little errors; again you don't have to change anything it's just a "heads up" :P

Regards;
Elegantly Wasted.

Simple, but very effective. i completely understand the feeling of preferring to feel pain than that horrid numbness where u cant even cry ur so numb. that expresses it perfectly, really great piece.
lots of luv xxx

No offfense elegantly wasted thanxe for the tips but suggestion number three should not have been made cuz if you change the wording you change the meaning and you should change the meaning of anypoem one its written the other suggestions are fine but yea

lots of love
☼Becky☼