What could I do, the years were slipping fast:
My mind a turmoil, guilt and sadness in my heart:
I knew not who I was or those whose lives,
Were interwoven into mine and played their part.
For life was passing by each day the same .....
Searching for fullfillment and the chance
To stop the world, meander, find myself:
Cease the music, change the partner, change the dance
.
I feared their disapproval, their opinions not like mine:
I shunned their mocking faces and my shame.
Reality was quite beyond my power
Til out of darkness what a light there came.
A light that showed a path that I could follow,
A light my spirit could at last define,
Tis God who draws by light and truth and reason,
Towards Himself to share His love divine.
Still, sometimes though things have changed for good,
My heart is puzzled by the life I lead;
The hurry and the bustle pulls me on,
I scurry by with still no time, take heed
My soul, for you must lead the dance,
And you must seek fullfillment in this time;
See through the rushing hours and tiring days,
See through show me the reason and the rhyme.
Remember still the light that draws me onward
So when my time is near and I must leave,
I will not fear the answer to my quest,
No longer will my mind my soul deceive.
