Sixteen year old Statistic

Sitting in my bathroom
Unsure of what to say
The test still in my hands
My life forever changed today

The tears started falling
Almost instantly
How was I so stupid
To let this happen to me

I am only sixteen
Now a statistic
A pregnant teen
From a night I'll never forget

I was in love with him
But had never told him so
He had a girlfriend
So I pretended to let my feelings go

Every day I thought of him
And it was always him I dreamed of
I never doubted myself once
I knew that it was love

One night when he came over
We had to much to drink
We did some things we shouldn't have
Now I don't know what to think

How am I to tell my mom
That I let her down again
And somebody please tell me
How I'm suppose to tell him

Is he going to believe me
And whats his girlfriend going to say
Because she just found out she was pregnant
By him the other day

Will they think I'm trying to do this
To break them all apart
As much as I love him
I don't want to break his heart

Is he going to care for this child
Or will I have to do it alone
As much as I hope he does
This is a decision of his own

I hope that he loves this child
Even if he doesn't love me
Because this child needs him
And thats how things should be

I can't believe this is happening
I wish this was a dream
How do I handle this
What does it all mean?

How am I suppose to raise a child
And how are people going to react
My poor friends and family
Had more faith in me than that

How am I suppose to care for this child
When I can't take care of myself
How do I handle
All these problems I've been dealt

I guess its time to grow up
And take responsibility
I'm a mother now
Sixteen year old me

**This is true and I'm going crazy. this whole situation is so bad.... Its the only way i knew how to deal with it i know its not very good though***