"i have to be strong
i cant give up
i know im strong but i feel so weak
i know im loved
i know i have someone there when i need them
i know someone belives in me"

I'm glad you realize all that. I'm sorry those other thoughts and urges are still there. It may help to make a list of all the things you have to live for, and look at it in the times you feel down or wanting to harm yourself.

Yay for dropping the blade!

Nice rhythm... And I guess I am strong, but I feel week a lot...other people say I am strong... I guess I have to believe it for myself... I know I can't give up.

Take care.
xxxx