Falling from Grace

Life is all a blur
Living was such a joy
I never thought to realize
Happiness was a toy

Everyone left me alone
Like i did something wrong
I never thought to realize
This is my sad song

I look back on it
I always wonder why
Why I took such a fall
Even when i didnt try

My life is miserable
Away from it all
Lost all of my good grace
Through the mud i crawl

Bitterness returns to me
I can't have hit the floor
Because i dont remember
You closing the door

Even when i'm there
I'm not included
Even when i speak
My presence you eluded

Now my presence lingers
So you decide to leave
A disgusting feeling
Makes you want heave

Was i really
As bad as i seemed?
What is it I can do
To be redeemed?

I hate being scared
I hate feeling scorn
But thats what it felt like
When my life was torn

So what happens to you?
When you fall from grace
Would even dare
To show your vile face?

Would i take you back
Like you though you deserve
Would i lend you help
Would i have the nerve?

What if i was tired
Of all your cock and bull
What would you do then?
Without the strings to pull?

To all of us
Please remember me
That this lifestyle
Doesn't come free.......