My last tear

Deep, dark, emotional thoughts
Constantly on my mind
Ones of self harm and suicide
Feeling disturbed, constantly crying
Plagued by insomnia
On a cliff edge of emotion
One small change could make me fall
I could lose all my sanity
Hiding away, suffering this deep embarrassment
Ive seen too many faces turn cold
As their told of my illness
They pretend they don't hear
Acting like I'm diseased, I'm different
I'm not, I'm ill, all i want is help
A problem shared is a problem halved
When your depressed, its a problem doubled
If i had wings i could fly
Leave the pain i feel behind
Say goodbye to the lies, the betrayal
The mind games and torture
My broken heart and all the nasty thoughts
But for those who have let me down
There would be no last goodbye
There would be no last wave or kiss
Only only last tear I'd shed
Knowing their cruelty would never effect me again