I fell in love with you under false pretenses and lies. I never thought I could find anyones heart so pure and true but in the end it was all fake and a ruse. How can you live with the facts and truths of your cold dark life? When in reality you cause nothing but pain and strife.... Life is a hard lesson to be learned above all the pain and hurt.
I opened my heart and showed you in and wanted to nothing to be loved and have new beginnings. I already accepted who you were and I do not know why you tried to hide the truth from me. But now I know that you did not love me when you decided to share yourself intimately with someone else. You create a web of lies and deceit and in the end it brought you, your own defeat. Now we have a child together and what am I suppose to do? I will remain strong but I will always feel this hurt, too. I am rebuilding my life because I have known the truth for a while. I was just giving you time to open up to me but you only just used me. Was it just sex for your own pleasure? And to laugh at me behind your back for your own measure? You broke something inside me that it will take years to regain and that is trust in relationships because it appears all the same. How could you let history repeat itself? Are you asking quietly for some kind of help? God is forgiving and God will understand, all the demands of a very demanding man.
I am strong and I am beautiful and my light will continue to shine because I will not let this incident destroy my life. I got something wonderful out of lies and deceit and she will be my guided path through life along with my son. She will be strong and she will be loved because she has a mother who adores her. Do not hurt anyone else and if people cannot accept you for your past then they are not worth your time. You let your insecurities get in the way of something that could have been great. I would have never judged you for your mistake..........
