I Miss Him

I miss you so much
The pain I cant ignore
But Im too scared to open my heart
And let my feeling for you pour !

Im so stupid
I was the one who pushed YOU away
Now all youre all I think about
I regret what I did every day.

I miss your smile
I cant take this pain
Its hurting deep inside
Really I cant do anything its driving me insane !

Id only tell you
If I knew you loved me back
I couldnt take the rejection
My world would turn back.

I still love you
No matter what I said in the past
Take no notice I dont know why I said it
I just really wanted us to last.

Thats never going to happen now
Ive ruined it all
You wont ever be here
Youll never catch my tears when they fall.

Im trying to get a grip
Of what that means
It seems to slip right through my mind
If you were here Id be full of beams.

But your not here
So my smiles are fake
Only real when I forget about you
Which is hardly ever the pain is too much to take !

I wish you were with me now
I cant take being with out you
Do you know how I feel ?
I wish you loved me too !

I have too many questions
That only I can answer it too hard
The pain is unbearable I try not to think
Anyway Ill always have you valentines card.