Your world goes black as you sit there. The feeling as is you being smothered, consumes you, light fades in and out. Wanting help but too afraid to ask. Trying to see beyond the darkness but you can't. Still you sit there struggling to be let lose but you get taken deeper. Opening your mouth to speak but no words come out, trying over and over, still no voice. Feeling deserts you as tears stream down your face while you think of things you shouldn't. Ready to die but you fight to live one more day with the ones you love. Pain trashes through you, trying to find a way out of this black hole you got yourself into but you can't. Trapped, wanting to be free. Feeling sick and tired but not wanting to. Going through your thoughts for someone to blame but knowing the only one to blame is you. Ending in a place you never wanted to be. getting sick of yourself, watching every moment slip by as you tare yourself apart. Piece by piece you watch yourself fade away until you're gone.
