I Continue To Suffer

You tell me not to hurt myself,
And that I shouldn't say I want to die,
You just don't understand any of it,
You don't understand why.

Listen to me for a bit,
And you'll maybe see,
That it's not because I want attention,
It's just me.

I deal with everything in my life,
A lot different than you do,
You sit and don't care about anything,
But I'm a lot different than you.

Yeah, you understand me,
But you don't know it all,
You see the part of me that pretends,
You don't see it when I fall.

I know you care about me,
Sometimes I wonder though,
Would you really care,
If I decided to go?

You may cry a little,
And you may say I lied,
But after all of it,
You still wouldn't take my side.

The things in my house,
The things that you don't see,
Are the things that put my life together,
The things that make me...me...

It hurts to know,
I'll never be the same,
That once happy little girl,
Is put away with shame.

My life is no fairytale,
Put together with happiness and pride,
My life is a life full of anger,
With things I'll always have to hide.

Screaming, yelling, fighting, nonstop,
I'm always on the bottom,
Never on the top,
Not important enough to matter.

Not important enough to care,
Outside of this hell,
Is what makes me happy,
Is what makes me not want to dwell.

But no matter what I do,
No matter how hard I try,
I can't escape this hell,
I can't say goodbye.

And I continue to suffer,
When here is where I stay,
Does that make you happier,
Then leaving to a happier place today?