Her bloody suicide

Me and her made a promise that night
we will continue together, continue to fight
but she gave into the pain
now I'll never see her again
it kills me inside and out
when i heard i began to shout
i couldn't believe she was gone
she gave in after so long
the tears just wont stop going
and the blood stopped flowing
i want to die too
i cant live without you
i miss her more everyday
she was my best friend what can i say
i miss her more than you will ever know
because inside my heart you can't go
but theres a secret deep down inside
that now i am forced to hide
she was the only that knew
and i had to hide it even from you
she was the only one that always saw the pain in my eyes
and knew the real reason i want to die
she doesn't know how much i miss her
so now i dig deep with the razor
my dear friend is gone
and so am i, it wont be long
just watch the blood flow
as i soon go
I remember the night she died
her bloody suicide

*my best friend killed herself she was my 10th friend this year. i love her and i will never forget her. she means the world to me and so much more. i would do anything to be with her again. its so hard not to end it too. i tried last night and ended up in the hospital. please let me know what you think of this poem it would mean alot to me because it has alot of meaning to me*