My ego has been severely dented, there are so many insecurities screaming through my head - I feel like reclusing for a while, and wallowing in my misery, but I know it won't help. Now she's gone, all that protective blocking I did is starting to unravel, and I'm starting to fall apart. I'm in an explosive mood I wander about aimlessly, seething, looking for an opportunity to turn this anguish into rage and let it boil off that way. I suppose you have to look at it like this, would I have preferred this all never to have happened? She isn't the problem..just the trigger. She was my karma, the reason I went through all this other sh*t. And now it's over. And again I wonder if someone is just playing with me
