I'm glad she's in it

My hands are shaking, i need to run away
My family has me too pissed to even stay

It's raining outside, my jacket is on the ground
I'm breathing deep, rain is a pleasant sound

Nobody can tell if I'm crying
Nobody knows that I'm tired of trying

The pictures on the walls are broken on the floor
I'm sorry but i couldn't handle it no more

I don't want memories of certain things
Only sadness to me it brings

The glass shatters and falls to the wooden floor
Throw it into a garbage bag just like before

In my room, more memories come back to me
I'm too pissed off to handle this clearly

I found the answer in my drawer
I found what i was looking for

this room is so damn empty
it echoes too loud, it's the past verse me

The mirror shows a shameless girl
Who's trying to fix herself in this crazy world

Everything is cleared off the shelves
Why can't i believe like everyone believes in themselves?

A band-aid can't heal this no more
It's not like i did before

I don't want to bother anybody, it's only me
I'm not that important, honestly

I failed once more...
My mother was right on what she said before...

I can't do nothing right
I can't do anything, except fight

But i am getting better, i do believe so
Because i didn't take pills or drugs, i just said no

I'm sorry, i can't do things right
I'm sorry, the only thing i can do is write

I'm sorry for not meeting up to your expectations
I'm sorry for not fitting in on your little "family celebrations"

I don't fit in and i don't belong
This place where I'm at seems so wrong

Why can't i find someone else here
that i can talk to and help make my troubles disappear

Jen didn't forget about me, i know she didn't
That's what she said, i thought she was kidding

Why didn't i think of her before i got so mad?
Maybe if i done things right, this wouldn't hurt as bad

The only people that i don't want to disappoint
Is my gram and her, screw everyone else in this joint

And my gram doesn't know about my past
But Jen does, she found out pretty fast

And now i feel that i let her down
It's what i do best in this small damn town

I'm sorry...but i will get better, i got to make that promise
What would they say if they say this?

She's really the only one who made me different
Because she knew what to say about my life, I'm glad she's in it