Tesko Suicide

Take a look at me
And in a split second you can tell
this body standing right in front of you
has been put threw hell

but you can do nothing about it
what i have been threw
Ive already lost my soul
theres nothing you can do

scars remain in my heart
my arms and legs stay bruised
while slits don't heal on my wrist
I'm broken and abused

hit beat up and thrown around
and you can only feel bad
but you cant feel the pain i do
you have no idea how hard it is when dad gets mad

when he throws a fit
hes truly out of control
he beats me senselessly
his heart is served cold

And i have to live his sin
not telling people the truth about my scars
i simply say it was a accident
but really he caused me harm

the sound in his voice when he yells
shatters my heart
the echo continues forever
and the marks he leaves tears me apart

I'm stuck in a frame of a half life
one thats not worth living for
i try but its not good enough
i might as well end up on the bathroom floor

full of blood from my arms
i cant stand living this lie
i cant keep holding in this sin
i cant keep pretending i don't want to committee suicide

so now you open up this door
your lead into the bathroom
full of pain and hate
a room full of doom

and there lies the confused girl
i am now just a memories
someone not that important
my pain couldn't be seen

blood stains my hair
and i lay against cold tile
until I'm in my coffin
when they put on my fake smile

you no longer have to deal with me
nor my problems and depression
this is what Ive hidden for so long
this is my life long confession