The overwhelming emotion that washes over me
Suffocating and stealing away every breath
Drowning in my own self-pity
Waking up every night from problematic nightmares
Once I close my eyes all my fears haunt me
They scream at me like I am nothing
Physically and emotionally abusing me till I no longer want to live
Afraid to wake up and realize its all real
Crying in my room staring at the blank walls
Finally understanding the meaning of being lonely.
For this I take my last breath and rain upon your happiness
Making you never forget my own enemy within me.
--October 21,2005
