Calling Out

Why is everyone pretending?
Why are we all so fake?
Should I lie,
Or tell you the truth,
Which is the bigger mistake?
It\'s all a mess,
And I\'m dieng inside,
From all this pain,
I\'m trying to hide,
You don\'t know you hurt me,
And if you did,
Would you care?
I cry all the time,
Thinking \"Life\'s Not Fair\"
Trying to fix it,
Just makes things worse,
I want to yell at you,
With all these curse words,
Sitting here thinking,
Where I went wrong,
Listening to you,
Play my favorite song,
Your the one that can save me,
Bring me out of my pain,
Being with you,
Happiness I gain,
I\'m right next to you,
Not showing my fear,
But wishing you were holding me,
Holding me so dear,
I look up at you,
And you look back at me,
I smile cause I know,
Your thinking of me,
I want you to take me away,
Away from here,
Take me away from my pain and fear,
This smile hides everything,
Everything inside,
I bet you don\'t know it,
But my smiles a lie,
You ask if I\'m okay,
And I reply yes,
But my real answers no,
I\'m a f*c_k_i_n_g mess,
Looking at me,
Must not give it away,
Cuz everyone else,
All thinks I\'m okay,
I want to go,
I don\'t want to stay,
All of this pain,
Puts me in dismay,
I don\'t understand,
I can\'t comprehend,
Will it all work out,
Be okay in the end?
Take this broken heart,
And make it right,
So I don\'t have to cry myself to sleep at night,
Laying here thinking,
What I\'ll write next,
But nothings coming,
Cuz all these thought are a mess,
Up in an hour,
No time to sleep,
Been thinking to much,
Been thinking too deep,
Tossing and Turning,
Why can\'t you learn,
This feelings are real,
They all mean so much,
Why did this happen,
I gave you all my trust,
Staring at the ceiling,
Wishing myself away,
Thinking of you,
And how you caused me all this pain,
The ceiling starts spinning,
And my head starts to hurt,
These thought pile up,
And Make everything worse,
Crying on the outside,
Dieng In,
You just told me I can\'t talk to my friends,
You tell me its great,
You told me its fine,
But after six months,
Now you aren\'t mine,
I\'m crying for help,
But no one can see,
This pain thats hiding,
Deep down inside of me,
I\'m calling out,
Out to someone new,
Are you able to realize,
That someone is you!