Day 1

Sitting here at the Fall Retreat
with everyone who thinks they're cool
I know I shouldn't have come
I feel like such a fool

maybe things will get better
I guess you never know
maybe I'll gain something from this
maybe spiritually I will grow

I just haven't felt him lately
but then again I did
I feel so lost in my mind
like a scared little kid

smiling, laughing
and faking a smile
soon you will see the real me
I can only act a little while

I hope God talks to me
I'm begging him now
I need him more than anything
more than I know how