It's So Hard

It's so hard to look at you,
and not break down and cry.
It's so hard to hold back questions,
when I really want to know why.

It's so hard to see you laughing,
while I try to pretend everything's okay.
It's so hard to dream of you each night
and think of you every day.

It's so hard to think about
the way things could've been,
and to know this was all just a game to you -
a game I could never win.

It's so hard to even see you.
You can make my day with just one touch.
But when you don't even pay attention,
it hurts me just as much.

It's so hard to want you,
it's so hard to hear your name.
It's so hard to know that even in a million years,
you still won't feel the same.

It's so hard to know all of this,
but you, I can't make see,
these feelings keep getting stronger;
as if they were meant to be.