Mema said it was okay to cry, but I didn't think it was. You were only 19 so young and full of life. You left without know that I forgave you for what you did. I know now that you are in Heaven watching over me knowing that regardless of what happened that I still love you for you were one of my best friends. I sit here and think about all of the memories we made together throughout our childhoods and as we grew into young adults. I know that you cared and didn't mean to do what you did. I really hope that you do know that I forgive you and wish you were still here. Who am I to cause trouble with now. Who am I to sit and reminisce about growing up with. I couldn't let myself cry; that is until the day they put you in the ground. I wish I could have been there. I wish I could have told you goodbye. Mema said it was okay to cry...and I have over and over again.
