Words, thought and memories fill my mind
i wonder if things where different what sort of person i would be
would i be this unhappy
would i think these thoughts
challenging concepts i try to grasp
dramatically seeking a new self
hoping and praying that some day things will change
if i could be a different person
would i feel the loneliness and the emptiness i feel
would i regret so much and would hate still be embedded in my body
my spirit is tawn and my heart is tattered,
trust for people running thin as the fading light at the end of the tunnel drowns out leaving me black
the thoughts turn reality the memories relived and the words of pain i can see clearly in white glowing in front of my face
i scream and cry wanting this moment to pass
my body feels consumed with fat my face looks like a monster as my soul is ripped bare from my chest
as red tears fall from my arms i begin to calm down
life for a moment flickers and my heart beats rapidly!!
waiting for the end i sit in fear ,
but it never comes
depression is extreme it takes over your life and turns it upside down
Friends desert u and you rely completely on yourself
things will be different i tell my self if i weren't here
people would be happy and so would i , but not for today for today ill stay just to see if things will change
but if they don't this night Will Be my passion to bring the end closer catapulting to a halt and darkness to consume me again
