Thinking about...

Before i fell asleep last night

I prayed to wake in death

I prayed for my last breath

The tears had streamed down my face

I kept my hands fisted in plea

My heart broke for the yearning to be free

I hated myself for being weak

I went too deep this time Deeper than before

My life meant nothing to me i couldn't handle my disgust anymore

I cried prayers and fell asleep in plea

I didn't know I didn't understand

Why i keep falling when i barely land

But this was it I had to realize

There is no way out

This is life What it's all about

No matter what i believe in God or no God

There's pride and then there's shame

But in the end i only have myself to blame

So now i think twice before i cry

It's not at all worth the heart ache

But hopefully when it's over my first breath i begin to take